ugh, i lost my entire recipes page. fuck! and those guys are not resuscitating my old tables for me. i am so sad to have lost it. starting over will happen soon. i’m gonna redesign this bitch and change its purpose. i rarely blog, anyway… i need a way to feel more effective and less like a negligent parent when it comes to my website.
for a good time check out these beautiful photographs cherry vega took of me on her li’l photoblog.
July 8th, 2009 at 1:15 am
Damn, I am very sorry to hear about that Mal.
In no way did you deserve to have this happen to you.
Those two photos are beautiful, are they part of a new series?
One gave the viewer the power, and the other gave you the power.
Cherry shoots with a D700 now, wow. A fantastic camera for a fantastic photographer.
I hope you’ll re-engage your readers with a vlog every once in a while, if for no other reason to break free from that resistance known as writer’s block.
Good thing I saved that gem of wisdom I wrote in response to that entry, because I think elements of it still apply to how your feeling now. It is as follows:
“Communicating in person or in real-time is embraced for its instant gratification. It doesn’t often require deep thought or reflection, and only in instances where debating or engaging in negotiations does it require a calculating thought process. However, when writing you can take any approach you wish, and I think you’re expecting your mind to operate in the same mode when writing as it does while conversing in real-time, which can make you feel conflicted and at a loss of ideas.
Sometimes that happens, you should step back and just think about what you want to share, if anything at all. Maybe it isn’t worth sharing. Maybe it’s something you need to share with somebody else?
Maybe you don’t need to share anything with us at all. Maybe it’s something that can’t be put in words. Maybe your ideas need to be expressed in some other form? You are an artist after all, and artists thoughts can’t always be intellectualized or summarized into blog posts, therefore you need to express yourself in a different way.
Choose your own form of communication, nobody’s forcing you to write, let alone write to us.
Maybe you need to write a family member, friend, or some other loved one. Sculpt, paint, draw, go make out with somebody, I don’t know, get inspired.”